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I had a dream a few weeks ago.
I walked into a room. This room was filled with people. Male, female, intersexed, gay, etc.. all walks of life.
All of them.. somewhat familiar, but I couldn't put a finger on it. They seem to be cousins or relatives of a sort. Someone came up and greeted me.
"Hi" She said with an odd excitement. "You're new, or maybe, I just haven't met you."
"My name is combination 17830284156123. What's your combination number?"
I replied, "I don't have a number."
With a curious look, she said "oh, well... I guess from your corner, you guys don't label yourself like that hm? Of course, around these parts, since we've gotten tired of just saying 'hey you'. We decided to give yourselves the designations of the combination."
"Oh, designation? Then my name is Dark".
With that her eyes grew wide in realization of who I was.
"You're the one! The one that made it!"
Shouting from the tops of her lungs she gathered as many people as she could.
Bewildered, I just stood there dumbstruck.
"I guess you wouldn't know," she continued after calming down a bit, "but we, are the unborn combinations of you.
"We, the millions of people here are the you that never was."
As I looked around I see myself in them, all my age, all of them with similar features to my own. All walks of life I could have been. And this is just the tip of the iceberg.
Some with deformities, some absolutely flawless, some identical twin.
Yet here I stand. With a name.The gravity of it all hit me.
I stood there looking at the crowd gathering. Each of them looking up expectantly at me, seemingly wanting me to say something, to do something.
With every ounce of courage I could muster I spoke resoundingly.
"I have been fortunate to be the one selected out of the millions of you that did not come to be. Though my life is uneventful and rather unremarkable, I do not squander the gift I have been given and denied you."
I woke up.
I marvel at all the possibilities that could have been, but here I stand. My life unremarkable, uneventful, and for the most part quite common.
But such greatness is grander than any divine plan, greater than any "meaning", itself is beautiful and elegant.
I have won the greatest proverbial lottery ever played. And the jackpot, A chance to live.
